So I have OCD as well as autis. OCD is actually an autism symptom. I’m idolizing death as my eternal peace and freedom and thence why I’m seeing a therapist weekly and I feel I can’t be free or happy while alive.
Autism makes kes me wanna live in my own bubble or comfort zone. Why? Because it’s perfectly predictable and I know how to act in my own space.
With others in my life, it’s stressful because I don’t know who they are and why they’re in contacwith me at all. Thenc in short, not interacting with anyone at all is my freedom and peace.