Relationships are tedious for me personally!

A rant today on relationships again. First off, I'd like to put it out there that I hate being crushed on, in a love triangle or a love polygon. Having immense popularity with the opposite sex, I'm cursing my natural beauty and I hate my perfect skin.

I find personally that relationships are melodramatic, only about fights, conflicts, jealousy and arguments. It's suffocating, suffering, confining and torture to be in one for me personally. Especially with a super jealous, controlling, possessive and protective partner in one.

I find it melodramatic because if I'm not paying my guy enough attention, he'll become jealous and I've had to block a guy who's been crushing on me for 12 years and he and I weren't even in a relationship at all. He's become so jealous that he wants to know every guy I talk to. He's been wanting to control my every action and I couldn't stand it at all. Jealousy isn't love but possession. To conclude, it might be because I'm lacking positive experiences with relationship that I hate it so much.