Autism, Chapter 3

Yes today I had deliberately gnored a lady’s plea for help and the sales staff’s hello. As an autistic, I don’t see any point in saying hi or greeting.

In fact, I wish to be invisible to others and to go unnoticed. Why? Because others are merely pressuring me to talk and I don’t like it all.

I have to choose you. You don‘t choose me. I have to invite and welcome you to my world, otherwise it’s just random and I can’t cope with randomness. I’ve never first approached anyone for anything. I feel truly awkward doing so.